Category Archives: Thoughts


Sometimes I think that I would die without coding for a day. Sometimes I think I’ll die if I write another line of code. It’s such a love-hate!

Nothing really inspiring to post today! I just wanted to get that off of my chest.


Sometimes, I get excited when I figure something out that is seemingly so simple but took a bit of though. The nature of my job is such that I am often thinking in low-level processes so sometimes the simplest of things passes me. My vet called and asked me how much my kittens weigh.

Problem: I only have a digital scale that doesn’t work until a certain poundage is on it. My kittens are for sure less than the minimum weight.

I thought for a few days about it (occasionally… not as if it was my only thought). Finally it hit me!

Solution: Weigh myself first. Pick up the kitty, weigh myself + kitty and take the difference.

Viola! They weigh around 3 lbs each. 🙂

Tea Kettle Before the Signal

Have you ever watched a tea kettle do its job? What about a toaster? If you have, have you ever paid attention to how you felt while watching the tea kettle or toaster? There’s always this point where time seems to slow down and every second feels like a minute. But more than that, there’s a build-up of … “something” in ourselves as we anticipate the high pitched scream emerge from the pot or the always alarming “pop” of the toaster. Can you feel that?

Great! That’s how I’m feeling today. For some reason I have all of these amazing ideas brewing for my script, some poems, a painting, some photography, etc but the execution is feeling a bit fearful for me. My life for the last 5 years has been very digitally oriented. I write pseudo code in my sleep, for crying out loud. Executing the creative side of me seems like its going to be a bit of work, I’ll have to wipe the dust and cobwebs off of that part of my brain and get to work. Maybe I’ll write a song. Maybe I’ll get more of my book done. There’s probably an unending list of stuff I could accomplish; stuff that I left hanging out to dry years ago.

Poems were rolling in my head the other night, as I slept. It was strange, actually. I’m used to working out complex algorithms in my sleep. That started about 7 years ago when I was preparing for the A+ exam, I dreamed that I was labeling parts of a printer. From then on I would work out code or problem spots as I lay down, asleep or not. So poems were new or me. Of course I don’t remember the words of most of them now. I just remember the feeling I had. Anger. Its of course something I want to really look into, but it was there, nonetheless. Most of the poems I was writing seemed aimed at my parents, which doesn’t necessarily seem surprising for most of the world, but I’m nearly thirty years old! I kinda feel like any issues I seriously had with my parents should be long over by now. I guess that’s a lie I told myself.

Oh well! I’m off to be creative! I think this is going to be wonderfully fun! Love you peoples!

Small accomplishments

“The supreme accomplishment is to blur the line between work and play. “ ~Arnold Toynbee

Ahh, it’s 1:45 in the morning, and I have just finished setting up the first computer in my new office network. I spent several minutes trying to think of the most important element to any office… the computer naming scheme, and I have come up with what I think is pretty clever and can easily expand as the business grows; a “Buffy the Vampire Slayer” theme. I’m giving all of the servers and computers names from characters or places from the tvshow. We have “Willow” for my macbook, and I’ll wait to name my other computer until Heather picks a name for hers tomorrow.


Aside from the office network, it’s now 1:49 in the morning, and I’m listening to the bittersweet lyrics of Vienna Teng. I’ve decided to write my own WordPress plugin to accomplish a task one of my clients wants for her site. Why not? I need to contribute more to the online world, so this will be a great start for me. This plugin will be very useful for teachers or professors wanting to work with students, allowing them to pass different things to each other using the blog. I’m very excited and am hoping to get version .01 done this weekend.

I’m still swimming in business plans and financing information, but I know I’ll have more time next week to finalize everything. So far, the transition is going smoothly, save the impending removal of the regular salary. I’ve got a lot of support from everyone around me, so I have no doubt I’ll succeed… Even if it means some long long hours and many meetings.

I don’t think I have very many readers on this blog yet, but for those that are keeping track, I have a question for you to think about. Much of my journey to this point has been a lot of observance with regards to what is “good” business practice and what is “bad” business practice. I’ve got a lot of ideas, but I always welcome more. I figured I’d open this entry up to discussion with regards to “good” and “bad” practices. Try to think of things that happened in your company that you wish could have gone differently, or that would have made things so much more efficient. Think of those times where you may have perceived some malevolence in a co-worker or in upper management, and how that could have been dealt with differently.

I know one of my biggest weaknesses is attributing malevolent intentions to people, which is very strange because I believe that ultimately all my projections are a sign of something within myself… and I don’t really see myself as a particularly malevolent person. I’ll have to explore that a bit.

It’s now exactly 2:00am, and my favorite Zero 7 song of ALL TIME is on, so that’s a good sign that I should try to switch my brain off and get some Zzzs. I want to be nice and happy and fresh for my last day of being an employee!

Love you peoples!

PS. Read up on Tornybee. One of the things I like about him is that he thought just slightly outside the box, and I can relate to that! What can I say? It’s one of my strengths, depending on who’s point of view we’re looking through!

The Slogan Never Changes

“I’ll keep it short and sweet — Family. Religion. Friendship. These are the three demons you must slay if you wish to succeed in business.”

~Mr. Burns

For three years now, one of my personal mottos is “It doesn’t have to be a dog-eat-dog world.” In my short post-BA stint between the gown and now, I’ve seen a lot of negative reactions to success; primarily other people reacting to someone else’s success, and it always greatly concerned me. I’ve always firmly believed that one should gain success and prestige through one’s own merits, and through support from others if it’s available to them. What does it gain a person if their goal in getting to the top of the life-latter is by dumping everyone off of it and removing the bottom run each time. It doesn’t make the success any greater, it just makes the latter shorter. Or at least, that’s how I view it.

Ebenezer Scrooge learned that very lesson in business after he was frightened into it by some ghosts and hauntings of how his behavior effected everyone else around him in most horrific ways. I tend to believe that every well person, no matter how “business-like” he or she comes across, has some kind of compassion inside of them for something, be it children, or flowers, or death, or poverty, or employees, or… there’s always something that makes a hard heart go goo. That’s really my point. It’s always better to focus and be compassionate about life than to lose focus of your goals and forget what makes you goo.

I’ve had four full time jobs post-baccalaureate, each had a completely different lesson learned from it, and I’m still continually learning from the fourth one. In two of those jobs, I’ve been able to glean great and successful ways in how I want to run my business, once it gets fully up and running. The other two jobs have taught me more about what I don’t want to do, and has helped me distinguish what I feel is so important in running a successful business; compassion for those involved.
I know all of these ideas that I’ve picked up along the years, such as “That’s something I’m (not) going to do when I have my own business” is the same vague prediction as a 12 year old girl’s already-planned wedding, but I hope that I’m able to fully exercise what I’ve learned in order to make the best experience possible for my business, my employees, and my consumers.

It doesn’t have to be a dog-eat-dog world, whether in the world or in the workplace. If you’ve got your stuff together, and you get support and focus on your own business, there’s plenty to work on there without having to bust anyone else down.
There’s too much building up to worry about tearing down, and quite frankly, I think there’s more success to be had in the building up feature. It gets you closer to the goal, and keeps you happier. Really, it’s a win-win.

Obligatory First Post

“Do you have a business women special? You know, like, some places have a lunch special, for like, business women?” ~Romy

I moved to Los Angeles, CA just over two and a half years ago, with hopes and dreams that I’d be a star. The glitter and gold and shiny things, and the hair dressers and the makeup artists and the fabulous fashion… I couldn’t get enough of it in my small college town in southern Idaho; the market was dead up there unless you wanted to do commercials for insurance companies. I knew I had to break away from my comfortable life in the small city and move to the coast; the land of the stars.

Just kidding! Honestly, if there’s a spectrum of skills from “I’m VERY good at that one!” to “wow, okay let’s not do that again” acting is very much in the latter end of that scale.

Why did I make this trek, you might still be asking. Or perhaps you might not be asking since not many people even know who I am unless I’ve sent you to this blog. It’s simple. I’m in the field of Computer Science. Like acting, the market is in a higher demand here in Los Angeles. Unlike acting, I’ve never had a hard time getting work, which is why I’m here writing.

For many years now, including those long years in college, I have been running a freelance lifestyle on the side of my fulltime jobs. In LA, I’ve taken the “must find low paying jobs at all cost” route, which included a job change with a rather hefty paycut and the tagline “I believe in the product I’m creating, I believe it’ll sell and payoff.”

I’m still in sell mode with that one, but in the mean time I’m finding that my freelance lifestyle is attempting to bleed over into my full time jobs, and that never goes over well with bosses. So my grand scheme to solve this problem is to turn it into a business now, and enhance later, after “my ship comes in”. Problem is, I know next to nothing about business. On top of that, aside from being well associated with technology, I have somehow fallen behind in the skill of “THE GOOGLE SEARCH” and somehow it never gives me the information I’m looking for. So, it’s really an intresting experience, trying to get a small business started with no idea of what I’m doing, no real money to hire a CPA at the moment, and no CLUE where to find a reasonably priced lawyer to take care of those pesky business needs… like changing from a sole proprietorship to a S-Corp.

So, I figured I’d start a little blog, and write about my journey as an unexperienced business entrepreneur, an experienced software engineer, and a woman.

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